7/14/2006

Frustration/Ranting

Admittedly, I am pretty blasé about my numbers. Anything under 120 and I usually feel low. Hovering around 200 I feel great. Strange, but true. But 429 on a day when I actually tested before breakfast and again after and made the necessary correction is way high even for me! I woke up with a splitting headache, checked my blood sugar: 165, and guzzled some water and ibuprofen, waited for that to kick in then onto coffee. By the time I left the house the pain was mostly gone. After about 30 minutes at work it was back & by lunchtime had reached epic proportions. I took more ibuprofen with water and went to lie down (one of the few perks of my job is ‘Ladies Lounge’ with a comfy couch in a dimly lit room). Shit, I know I should test. 429 – WTF? I corrected earlier for my 285 and have not eaten anything since. This awful headache, maybe I am really getting sick – damn!

My infusion set came out and I didn’t even notice it. Could’ve been the particular pair of pants that I am wearing, linen drawstring ones that rest dangerously close to the site. Four hours and close to 15 units later, and I am down to 200 and starving! My husband, after making sure I am okay and that it is coming down, tells me that I have to be more careful. I know this is true but I absolutely hate it. My thoughts are so clogged with other things there just doesn’t seem to be the space to worry about this too.

I will probably crash later. I hate having to worry about this hate feeling like this. I am so not cut out for the role of diabetic. ARGH!!!!

7 comments:

Scott K. Johnson said...

Yuck - that sucks. Hope you feel better soon, and without a nasty low to go along with it.

I guess I don't agree with the "you should be more careful" thing. Shit happens (did you see MY post today?!). We deal with it and move on.

How the heck could you have known that your set was going to come out? You noticed it when you had unexplained high BG's and then took corrective action.

In my humble opinion you did just fine.

And to point out that I don't have issue with your husband's concern, I just don't agree with that particular statement.

Feel better soon!!

Kelsey said...

Scott said it, "shit happens!"

I relate to what you said about feeling low around 120 mg/dl and fine around 200 mg/dl. That's what happens when you're used to running a bit on the high side. When I started trying to get my blood sugars lower, I was testing constantly because I always felt low. It took awhile for my body to get used to the lower range. Now I feel high around 200 mg/dl. Funny how our bodies adapt and get "used" to a certain feeling!

art-sweet said...

What a crappy day! It sucks that we can never get a day off from this! Sending you virtual hugs, and hoping tomorrow is better for you.

Nicole P said...

Damn It. That sucks. I hate when the site pulls out and you don't notice. Once, I had the tape still suck and just the little canula sticking out of the middle of it like a toothpick. Grrr.... 450.

I guess it's the diabetic in all of us to think the "you should be more careful" statement is a bit off the mark. Sometimes it just doesn't matter how careful we are. Diabetes happens in spite of the care we take.

Johnboy said...

Yeah, who chose us for this role, anyway? I know I didn't sign up.

Well, sorry about your crappy day. Tomorrow is another day!

Elizabeth Zabell said...

Melissa-
So sorry to hear about your bad day!
Hope you're feeling better!

Lene Petite said...

Try to enjoy every moment you feel good, you should not think everytime of the role of diabetic-just be sure that you can overcome this and live your life!