I feel jittery, hyper, like my heart is beating too fast and I can’t stop fidgeting. Did I drink too much coffee? Have too much caffeine? I don’t think so. Plus, too much caffeine usually leaves me feeling more headachy and sick to my stomach. I’d better test my blood sugar.

My reading is a perfect 90 – that explains it. My in-target blood sugar is making me feel this way. It’s making me feel as if my pupils are dilated and there is too much light in the room. It is so hard to hold onto a thought. I feel so excited and energized, like I might burst.

My poor body is not used to blood sugars like this. It doesn’t know what to do; anything below 120 & I start to feel like this or I feel low. I know it’s because my body is all out of sync and that the lower my readings stay, the better I will feel, but this sucks. At 180 or even 200-I feel so much better, so normal. It’s ironic that my good blood sugar is making me feel bad; that’s diabetes for you.

irony a (1) : incongruity between the actual result of a sequence of events and the normal or expected result (2) : an event or result marked by such incongruity


art-sweet said...

"It’s ironic that my good blood sugar is making me feel bad; that’s diabetes for you."

Well said, Mel. I get horribly, I can't-think-of-anything-else hungry when my b.s. slips below 120. Has anyone told you how long the re-programming will take?

melissa said...

Thank you. Not really. The CDE said my body just has to get used to lower blood sugars. She also noted that any high thrown in the mix is like a set-back but it has more to do with the frequency of the highs. The gist of it is that I have never gotten an answer that I am happy with. No one will tell me that it's O.K. that my body seems to like higher blood sugars.
Go figure....